“Being” Over “Doing”

I’ve already heard from some of my local friends that the gyms are packed with folks determined (for now) to make 2019 a healthier and more fit year. I also have a gym membership and I confess I haven’t been since November. I do have my own goals of losing weight (an annual ritual) and I would like to get back into the gym, but I haven’t made any resolutions to that effect.

Having chronic pain may rule out too much physical activity and your energy is dedicated to just surviving each day. If you have a disease like me (ankylosing spondylitis), exercise can help you manage symptoms and slow down the progress of the disease. For others, anything beyond just getting out of bed and moving minimally throughout the day is just out of the question.

Whatever your goals or resolutions, be kind to yourself this year! Americans place too much value on doing instead of being. Our attitude on how we value ourselves and others can be summed up by the phrase “what have you done for me lately?” Just recently, I realized that some acute stress was piling up, and through prayer, I discovered that all the stress was related to feeling pressure to get things done. I was reminded that my value is in not what I do or don’t do, but who I am. Those who love me, see me for who I am, and not just what they expect from me. The stress levels went down.

When a baby is born, her parents love her before she has done anything. If a tragic disability takes away that child’s ability to do anything in her future, the parents love her still. God loves us like parents who fawn over their newborn. And when we are not able to do everything that we expect of ourselves, not to mention what others expect, God does not love us any less!

I am not saying that God places no expectations upon those who follow them for how they live their lives. But these expectations are usually related again to who a person is, what their character reveals, not simply what they do. If you are a dishonest person, then that is certainly a concern to God. However, if a disease robs you of your production at home, in the workplace, or even in church ministries, you do not cease to be who you are.

Make some resolutions if that suits you. But maybe you should also resolve to value yourself for who you are and not simply what you do. That might take some pressure off and 2019 might pass by with less stress and more peace!

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Christmas With Chronic Pain

Merry Christmas! I don’t intend to write a long blog, as this is a time for family for us all. I did want to share a brief devotional I wrote for a support group on Facebook. I am just going to copy and paste it here. I do think it is meaningful, because if we believe the story of God coming to us in Christ to embrace all the suffering of humanity and to give us victory over even death, then we have much to find merriness even in the midst of pain. So, Merry Christmas…the devotional is below.

I want to begin my meditation from Heb. 2:9:

9 But we do see Jesus, who was made lower than the angels for a little while, now crowned with glory and honor because he suffered death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone.

None of us chose our suffering, but Jesus chose his for all of us. I need to remember that when my pain seems unending. No, my pain is chronic, but it is not eternal.

He chose to taste death for everyone. Maybe Jesus didn’t have chronic pain from disease, but he embraced pain and suffering and even death for the salvation of us all. None of us have suffered as Jesus did on the cross and he suffered that way so that our suffering would one day come to an end. As you think about Jesus as a baby in a manger, remember he was there because he chose to be, knowing full well what that choice would bring him. Jesus is “Immanuel”, God with us, and that means a lot to those who are hurting.

How does knowing that Jesus chose to embrace suffering and death help you deal with your own suffering?

How is Jesus Immanuel today? How is he with us?

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Chronic Pain — Hot Links 12/11/18

I’ve been away from my blog for a while.  It wasn’t a planned break, just the result of an unusually busy time colliding with holiday trips and such.  Anyway, I hope that you had a good Thanksgiving and are ready for Christmas…oh, and 2019 is around the corner!

But I’ve been doing some reading and I want to share with you.  Here are some of the latest links relevant to chronic pain and faith:  

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The God Who Reverses Our Pain

Jesus gives a memorable parable in Luke 16 and it is striking that it is the only parable where a character is given a name.  Normally, Jesus’ parables included a simple description of a character, a Samaritan, a son, a father, a farmer, etc.  So, it is striking to read about “Lazarus” in Luke 16 and he appears opposite another unnamed character simply described as a “rich man.”

Later in the parable, both Lazarus and the rich man have reached their afterlife and they find themselves in opposite circumstances to each other and to what they were accustomed to in life.

The rich man is in torment and experiences an unquenchable thirst.  He looks across a gulf and sees Lazarus by Abraham’s side and begs for Lazarus to dip his finger in the water and be allowed to place it upon the rich man’s tongue.  Lazarus is not permitted to relieve the rich man because of the chasm between them, but also because their opposite circumstances reflect divine judgment.  Abraham tells the rich man, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony.”  rich man and lazarus

Lazarus had suffered greatly in life.  He was infested by sores on his body and had suffered such humiliation that even dogs licked his sores.  All of this is happening in full view of the rich man who enjoys his life of luxury without a second thought for Lazarus.  The message of Jesus’ parable is not hard to discern.  To ignore the suffering of others while indulging in luxury is a damnable offense.  If we will not take pity on others, then we will not experience pity in the life to come.

There’s another aspect of this parable, though, I believe is important.  It is concerning what God does for Lazarus.  Though it is a parable, there have always been a lot of Lazarus’ in the world.  Lazarus is someone who likely suffered from some kind of chronic condition, and in his world compromised health meant poverty, and poverty meant a life of begging.  And there may have been many times that Lazarus wondered if God cared about him and why God had allowed these things to happen to him.  God might have seemed disturbingly silent when he cried out to God for help.

And yet here is Lazarus at Abraham’s side being comforted for eternity.  Lazarus is enjoying a glorious new reality that far outweighs his suffering for the few years he was on earth.  Suffering is never easy.  Pain is still pain.  In the midst of it, it seems never-ending.  The story of Lazarus is a good reminder that pain is not eternal, at least, it doesn’t have to be.  God will remedy all that was wrong in our lives in the life to come.  God didn’t forget Lazarus even when everyone else did.  He knew his name and knows yours too.  welcome home

I am not saying that suffering is an automatic ticket to heaven.  By the way, being a rich man (or woman) is not an automatic ticket to hell (thank God!).  Eternal life is a gift given through faith in Jesus and his sacrificial offering of himself on our behalf.

I don’t know what you believe about Jesus, but what I hope is that if you are a person that is suffering in this life due to chronic pain, illness, and other agonies, that you realize that there is a God who comforts.  We have a God who restores.  Even in this life, the one who suffered more than all (Jesus) will walk with you.  But let’s not forget that none of us have to suffer forever.  Our God reverses our plight and gives us a glory that will one day make us forget our pain.  As the apostle Paul once wrote, “For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all” (2 Cor. 4:17).

 

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Chronic Pain Hot-Links 11/7

For this week’s hot-links, I wanted to share a blog that is specifically for those who are loving/supporting someone with chronic illness.  Let’s look a great blog with many compassionate and helpful posts.  https://calledtowatch.com/.

This next one is a typical list of new things you have to come to grips with when you have a chronic illness.  It seems a little bleak, but the ending makes it worth it, reminding us that we are not our illness.  https://thoughtcatalog.com/brittney-lindstrom/2017/12/7-things-no-one-tells-you-about-life-after-youre-diagnosed-with-a-chronic-illness/?utm_term=brittney-lindstrom&utm_content=buffer3eff4&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer

This will be a light week for hot-links.  I read several other articles/posts but just didn’t find a lot worth passing on.  This last one I share because it illustrates the dangers of making people feel like their faith is defective if they are not healed through a season of prayer.  Obviously, that is not what this ministry emphasizes (healing in this life very well may not come, please see Should You Keep Praying For Healing? for my perspective).  This post is a cautionary tale of how faith can become a casualty of the combination of chronic illness and bad theology.  https://wordpress.com/read/blogs/122617868/posts/1228

Since we are light on links this week, I will leave my “devotional” thoughts from last night’s Broken and Mended support group meeting.  In these thoughts, I try to articulate a way for faith not only to survive but to deepen and grow in the midst of chronic pain.

From Broken and Mended Meeting on 11/6/18

It is not a new occurrence that sometimes people give up their faith in the midst of pain or grief.  Maybe they expected that believing in God would lead to an easier life.  Maybe they were exposed to some version of faith that promised health and wealth as long as you believed enough.  People who are exposed to such toxic theology, often feel abandoned by other believers and even God when suffering comes their way.  Or maybe they blame themselves, with the help of others, for their suffering.  If only I believed more…Maybe I’m being punished for not being good enough.

Of course, many people didn’t believe in God in the first place and suffering (personally and generally) is confirmation that there cannot be an all-powerful God and an all-loving God in this universe.  Suffering is definitely a challenge to your faith.  Or maybe we could say, “Suffering will show your faith for what it is.”

All people are welcome here, even people without faith.  People of other faiths are welcome as well.  The faith that this ministry embraces is faith in Jesus Christ, the one who suffered and died for us at the cross.  It is strange that some many “Christian” expressions of faith are so disconnected with the Jesus who suffered and who called upon his people to “pick up your cross and follow me.”  Jesus never promised a suffer-less experience.  He only promised to be with us and was convinced that ultimately that would be enough.

Authentic faith doesn’t need to deny suffering or even misery.  Authentic faith accepts reality.  If we are hurting, then that is reality.  But authentic faith doesn’t try to make the very existence of God dependent on living a life of ease!  God is much bigger than all of us, even the whole human race collectively.  He is intimately concerned about us, but he is also infinitely bigger than us.  God doesn’t cease to be just because you ceased to believe in him.  He wants you to believe in him because he really is there and can help you through your pain.  He can even use the fires of your pain to forge you into a deeper and impactful person.

Allow me to share a passage that helped me to see my painful experiences as meaningful, as something formative.  Rom. 5:1-5:

 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

 I don’t mean to say that there are many days that I wished I just didn’t hurt.  Longing for a pain-free existence is natural and helps us to anticipate a better world to come in God’s kingdom.  But right now, I hurt.  And so, the question is “does my pain mean anything or not?”  If there is no god, then it is meaningless.  It has no redemptive power.  But if there is a God who loves me, who sent his Son to die for me, who is redeeming me, and who has given me a future, then my pain can even be useful in creating a heart for God and a heart for others.  It gives me the power to say that what I am experiencing will not be wasted.  We don’t often feel like glorying in our suffering, but we can in Christ.  Not for suffering’s sake, but for what suffering produces, perseverance, character, and hope.  Hope in God’s love that has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit.

Not only does my suffering not cancel out my faith, but it informs, deepens, and shapes my faith.  It makes me a better person, a person who sees the pain in each of you and feel the empathy we share as fellow pain warriors.  Let God make your pain count.  You are going to hurt either way; it is much better to hurt with God than without.

 

 

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Finding the Time For Rest When You Hurt

You have probably noticed that just because you struggle with chronic pain, doesn’t mean the world is going to stop for you.  Your parental responsibilities did not stop.  You probably still have a job.  Not only did the bills not cease, but they multiplied with more expensive medical needs.  Your lawn didn’t stop growing.  Your house didn’t clean itself.  You get the picture.  Responsibilities do not diminish with chronic pain and illness.  If anything, they increase.

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I think we can all relate to this, but is there another way?

Some of you have been disabled because of your illness or injury.  One day I will get a guest blogger to share their perspective.  That hasn’t been my experience.  Of course, I did have to take time off work for surgeries and other medical procedures.  I am a minister and my church was very understanding and supportive of my medical needs.  I preached, taught and kept every commitment I could, so that they would understand that if I told them that I couldn’t go, then I really meant it.  One Saturday night my back was hurting so bad that I was sure I was going to have call on someone to preach for me early Sunday morning.  I got just better enough to deliver the sermon that morning and I was thankful I could make my obligation.

But we can’t always do so.  We have to make adjustments.  We have to ask for others to make adjustments for us.  When you have chronic pain, every responsibility you have gets more difficult.  Besides the pain itself, there is the impact of fatigue.  Energy is at a premium.  There is the matter of mental health.  Additional stress and constant pain make you more susceptible to depression, or, at least, depressive-like moods.

You need rest.  You need time away from your obligations.  You need to create time and space for recharging.  Ask your spouse to give you an hour when you get home from work to lie down.  Tell your children you are going to take that bath on Saturday morning.  Allow yourself to say “no” to that party invitation because you know that you need some time.

We cannot successfully navigate the challenges of chronic pain and illness if we do not make some time to take care of ourselves.  It isn’t selfish.  In fact, taking breaks from your obligations can help make you more fully present when you re-engage with your family and friends, or you get back to that project you took an hour off from.

In truth, this is a lesson that all of humanity needs to recall:  The need for rest.  Rest is so important from God’s perspective, that the entire seventh day of creation is a day of rest for us.  Even God himself is said to have rested from his work on that day.  I know that God doesn’t literally tire, but he models for his creation the ethic of rest.  How much more do those who struggle with chronic pain need to make rest a priority?  

What you do with that rest is largely based on your convictions.  Christians can recall the times in Scripture when Jesus withdrew from the crowd to spend time on the mountain in prayer to his Father.  Spending some time with God in prayer is always beneficial.  However, you need time to take care of your body, and there’s nothing wrong with a night on your couch with your favorite book or watching your favorite movie.

The point is to give yourself permission to take care of you.  Surround yourself with family and friends (and even employers) who will support you in this endeavor, who trust you enough to know they get the best of you when you get some time for renewal and refreshment.

I am reminded of those Snicker’s commercials, where someone is acting in a way that is bizarrely and comically out of character for them.  Someone gives them a Snickers bar and they immediately transform back to themselves.  Who doesn’t like a Snickers!  I am pretty sure, though, that candy does not have those kinds of transformative powers!  But intentional and regular rest does.  Your life is hard enough and made harder by chronic pain.  If you don’t make time to take care of yourself, then your life might become overwhelming.

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Some days you need more than a Snickers!

What is your best way of finding rest?  What are some ways of grasping at rest that are ultimately counterproductive?  (For example, I often try to take my “down time” late at night, after everyone has gone to bed.  I end up staying up too late and feel even worse the next morning).

 

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Hot Links — 10/24

I’m trying to keep up by reading what I can on chronic pain and faith each week.  I was out of town last weekend, so these are a little late in coming out, but here a few good links to check out.

This is an article from the spouse of someone in chronic pain as she explains their quest to make sense of it all and how they proactively handle their situation through faith in Christ.  It isn’t very long and definitely worth your time.

https://www.christianitytoday.com/women/2018/october/disability-chronic-illness-i-found-hope-husbands-suffering.html

This next link is from a chronic pain blogging site that has no particular religious views as far as I can tell.  This post is a good sample of what they offer, usually personal stories that help people in chronic pain realize they are not alone.  This post has to do with accepting the limitations of chronic pain.

https://themighty.com/2018/01/accepting-limitations-ankylosing-spondylitis/?utm_content=buffer499b2&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer

A little poetry about finding strength in weakness.  This is so good.

https://www.paultripp.com/wednesdays-word/posts/weak

The last link is a Q&A with someone who has suffered horrendously for years and how she maintains her faith even when God does not intervene.  It is very good.

http://tanyamarlow.com/jenny-rowbory-suffering/?fbclid=IwAR3160s9mr0sRD6ZvmbKuxLVs2wSh_uIWScXMt_ThvosQb92yaQU3guIrVg

 

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